Hate The Way I Feel

Do you ever feel like you hate what you feel inside your heart???

That's what I feel right now...

I hate the way I feel inside my heart... I hate this feeling a lot...

Well, it's really not a big problem, actually. But I've made this problem more complicated than before.

And then it makes me feel so.... annoying, but after that it makes me feel so angry...

I get so selfish everytime I talk about this thing. I always think that I am in the right side, and I will always be the right side.

I don't want to listen to everyone that I love, I just keep my self drowning in this feeling, and I can't stop telling my self that I am the only one who is right.

I get more and more selfish each day, because of this problem, and this feeling makes me feel so bad, that deep down inside my heart I know that I'm doing a mistake.

My eyes are blind to see that everyone makes mistakes, and no body's really perfect, and that's why I should learn to forgive and forget.

Although my deepest heart whisper to me that I am wrong, I just don't wanna listen. I try harder to keep my self thinking that I am on the right side, and everyone's the mistake.

I am so selfish, and actually I really hate this feeling.

I hate to see the truth that I start to act like I am somebody else, I start to act like an evil girl, and I almost forget about who I really am.

I hate to see all the truths, and most of all I hate to feel this feeling.

But what am I suppose to do??? I am only human, I don't know where to go to make me feel any better. I just don't know what to do to makes this feeling just dissapear.

But now... I am trying... trying hard to change for a better thing... for a better me... for a sweeter me...

I need to change my way no matter what...

Because this feeling has made me lost my way, made me lost about who I should be and who I really am...

And I am so sorry to my self about this feeling...

I promise, not to be so selfish again...and I promise to my self that I will change to be a better person... and learn to forgive and forget about all the mistakes...

LOL,

SweetEster14